“She’s been wailing so much and it breaks my heart to see her like this” I recently complained to my mother, choking back my own tears.She laughed and said, “Well, she’s a baby.You’re a mom now.And your heart will break over and over again every time she’s in pain.”
I suppose that sums up motherhood for me right now.
A little over seven weeks ago I birthed a daughter and nothing has been the same since.Well, I still live in the same house and still enjoy rich coffee, dark chocolate and yoga and I have the same partner—yet everything seems so different now.
I sobbed when my husband, daughter, and I came home after a lovely stay at the hospital.Perhaps it was hormone-induced, as my milk was coming in, or perhaps it waspure exhaustion from birthand the cumulative effect of a difficult pregnancy with unrelenting nausea.Or maybe it was simply the fact that I had entered a new phase of my life and I realized how terribly overwhelmed I was.
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Katharine Deeb, CD(CHB) BIRTH DOULA Jacksonville, Florida and surrounding areas. Inclusive/Evidence Based/Full Spectrum. // email@example.com
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